Existence of Empathy by Lionel

Pure liquid fire.

First fan fiction written. Would anyone like to be my Beta? This is a work in progress. Tell me what you think; throw me some suggestions.

Lionel

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It had been four months since Naraku had been defeated and Kagome had wished for the permanent disappearance of the Shikon jewel.

After all their tears, sweat and blood, they had finally wrestled back an era of peace. Hesitant alliances between human and demon nobility left over from the war were being maintained. The war had proven it was possible for demons and humans to work together towards a common cause. 

With the jewel gone, everyone became busy with the task of recovering from the aftermath of the battle. In another four months’ time, there would be a celebration across the lands. They were to answer to a summoning at Lord Sesshoumaru's West Palace to receive thanks from the high demon lords.

Miroku and Sango were betrothed and were currently travelling to Miroku's temple to receive his head houshi's blessings.

The rest of the group; Shippou, Kagome and Inuyasha stayed behind to build new huts to live in, on the outskirts of Inuyasha's forest. They had just completed Kagome's hut and were starting on another for Sango and Miroku when they returned. 

After so many years, Inuyasha had come clean with his feelings for her and they started to share the bedding together. But cracks had started to develop in their relationship already...

It was fortunate that Kagome had developed a high tolerance for physical pain. 

 "I love you"

Simple words that Inuyasha said to her all the time. He meant it. She knew he did. But when he made love to her, it felt aggressive and almost unbearable. The way it was so rough, suffocating and painful. 

Tonight was another one of those frantic nights. Inuyasha gripped her hard, demanded that she look into his eyes as he made love to her. With his terse voice, his searching eyes, she sensed a lost little boy in a grown man's body. She tried to choke back her whimpers of pain. He loved her. But she was not sure if she loved Inuyasha now.

And he knew it.

He searched for it in her eyes. Fear seeped into his eyes as he searched; he was scared that all he would find was nothing but a dark coldness. She was attracted to him, but the past years of bitterness over Kikyou had changed her a lot. Kagome filled her eyes with smiles for him. It was hard to do so when she felt so worthless and tainted. 

She felt as if he was trying to consume his entire being. His possessiveness was overwhelming, yet it his passion also made her feel so alive. 

As he thrusted into her savagely, her mind started to disconnect with reality...

In the past, before Naraku was defeated, she had opened up her heart to him too many times, only to have it crushed by him in the dead of the night, as she watched him steal away from camp to go see Kikyou. It had been an unescapable vicious cycle until Kikyou's body was finally laid to rest after the battle. 

She didn't register the piercing pain of Inuyasha's claws sinking deep into her thighs. Absentmindedly, Kagome told herself that she didn't want his embraces, his kisses, or his touch anymore. Deep down, she knew that she simply did not want to be hurt by him again. 

So she had a closed heart. With plenty of barriers. She found it hard to trust him anymore. The irony was that Inuyasha had changed a lot since then; he was sweet and attentive to her. He stopped calling her "wench". He even went to the extent of picking flowers for her. Ha! She giggled inwardly at her memory of him with some wilted wildflowers and the embarrassed look on his face, it was so darn funny. But all these changes, just weren't enough for her, she had been too hurt -

A sharp lance of pain jolted her wandering thoughts away. Inuyasha had clawed the side of her waist too much, the tear was quite deep and it was bleeding everywhere on the bedding. 

That had hurt a lot...  She closed her eyes momentarily, attempting to force away the pain. When she opened her eyes, she saw warm, golden eyes tinged with guilt and worry. She clenched her teeth a bit and then forced herself to stroke the side of his face with her fingers gently. 

"It's okay, it doesn't really hurt that much Inuyasha, I know you didn't mean too." She said reassuringly. 

"I-I-I'm sorry Kagome, I'll go get you some cloths to wrap you up."

Inuyasha groaned a little in torture, as he slid out of her. She sighed in relief, grateful for the break. He was always so big. He got up and walked to where the shelves were and took several strips of clean cotton cloths. He handed them to her and kissed the side of her head.

"I'll leave you to rest... I don't want you to bleed more Kagome. I'm sorry."

"It's okay. I'm sorry too. Will you be okay?" She gazed at him. Gods he was so beautiful.  

His chest still rose up and down from their previous intense activity. Wisps of his white hair stuck to the sides of his sweaty face. Like all the other times, he still hadn't been able to release himself with her, and the evidence showed quite prominently between his legs...

He shrugged on his haori to cover it up and walked away to the door.

"I'll be...fine. Kagome...you just rest, okay?" He smiled at her, the smile not quite reaching his face.

He was putting up a brave front. And so was she. And they both knew it. As he opened the door, he turned back and looked at her in quiet adoration. 

"Good night Kagome. Make sure you bandage the cuts properly okay?"

"I will. Thank you, Inuyasha. Happy hunting."

When the door shut after him, she sighed. Wincing, she started to bandage herself. 

It had been like this each and every time. It was impossible for Inuyaha to be gentle with her when he got aroused, his bestial instincts took over too easily when excited and Kagome...she was too fragile...too weak to take it. She felt bad for Inuyasha. Every time they had to stop before he was satisfied, and he had to resort to killing some poor creature out in the woods to calm down instead of taking her with abandonment. 

It had been a month since they started sleeping together. The kissing she could handle, the nips, she adored. But the claws...the claws! They were the bane of her existence. She had already so many scars on her heart and now Inuyasha was layering more scars on her body as well. Oh well...

The injuries from their activities took a long time to heal and it was taking its toll on the both of them. Inuyasha was always highly-strung, due to constantly restraining himself sexually with her. Kagome, oh... She was so tired from all those injuries. Some days, she remained limp in bed from the exhaustion and pain. During those times, Inuyasha fed her, carried her to the springs, bathed her, and even took her to go toilet.

His shining devotion to her should have touched her. In the past, it would have. But now...It was hard feel the same towards someone that had repetitively hurt her emotionally before and now was hurting her physically as well. All the same, she was a strong girl, she'd tolerated worst injuries in the battle with Naraku, and so she felt that she should hold on for him.  

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Inuyasha charged out into the forest, red mangling with amber in his eyes. He stomped into the night, not caring how loud he sounded and how many beasts he could attract. He had cut down several lesser youkai lurking about already and would cut down more if need be. Rain had started to pour. Good. It was a welcome cool reprieve to his heated body. He couldn't shake the image out of his head. Kagome. Oh... Kagome in all her wonderful state. The way her legs...Kagome. Kagome. He wanted her so badly. So badly!! He wanted to hack down a section of a forest or...go back... finish what they had been doing together....

"NO!" He shouted to the forest. 

He started clawing the trees with his conflicted emotions. The urge was so strong to return to Kagome and succumb to his passions... but he knew that he would hurt her more if he did. The scars on her body were all his fault...And he was supposed to protect her and love her! 

His eyes were a tinge of orange by now. He was getting better and better at controlling his bestial primal state but he didn't trust himself completely to go back to the hut yet.

Haphazardly, he started to retrieve the dead rabbits and the deer.

Lately, Kagome had seemed distant to him, and it was making him worried. Inuyasha wondered if it was because of her wounds. His ears flattened dejectedly in defeat. Tonight, she seemed so empty in her eyes that it wrenched at his heart. Kagome....Kagome was his, his love. His only. It felt as if her warmth was dying day by day with him. 

Kami, he tried so hard to make her smile every day. He loved her so much.

He muttered on to himself, unaware of the gleam of soft, violet eyes that had been following him all along. He kicked at a tree stump. Splinters and pieces of wood flying from his lack of restraint. The violet eyes widened at his display of power appreciatively.

The rain eased off finally. But he was still so hot and still so preoccupied with suppressing his urge to go back to the hut. He crouched down to pick up gut and skin the animals, muttering on darkly about the torture he always seemed to be encumbered with...

He snarled in surprise when a suddenly he was knocked over on his back and winded. He tried to get up, but there was a weight on him. Stars were still spinning, and he struggled to get up, someone strong was holding him down.  

"What do you want!?!" he demanded, impatiently, all the way, trying to free himself from their grasp. 

"What do you think I want?" a female voice laughed softly.

When his vision cleared, he saw a female wolf hanyou straddling him and holding him down. She had honeyed skin, a curvy, toned figure and a glorious thick mane of golden-brown hair. She was in a half-transformed state, with thick golden brown tail, wolf ears and her fangs protruding. Red markings on her forehead swirled, constantly changing and flaring a heated white occasionally.She wore several dark braided ties to hold her hair back, and another tie around her left arm. Much to Inuyasha's dismay, that...was the extent of her clothing. Inuyasha's ears flattened in despair. 

"I don't know and I don't care, GET OFF OF ME!" He yelled.  

She was practically naked for Kami's sake! He yelled and railed at the gods in annoyance and the unfairness of life. He had been denied achieving complete pleasure with Kagome, the love of his life for a whole month on end! But nooo~, that wasn't enough; to add to his torture, there on top of him, was a naked female wolf hanyou...

Inuyasha's angry tirade trailed off when a whiff of her aphrodisiac scent caught his nose. The wolf hanyou was in heat.  

He was doomed.

"Mate me." She giggled at him.

And she proceeded to grind against his groin. 

His throat became dry. Her actions weren't helping his attempt to collect himself at all...it was quite obvious that he was hardening up down there... it was too much.

After holding out from being sexually frustrated for so long, Inuyasha blacked out.

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It was dawn. Inuyasha woke up to the intense sensation of a tongue swirling on his the tip of his cock. The air seemed chillier than normal for some reason. He writhed in pleasure. 

"Ah... Kagome, s-s-stop...I thought we agreed that you needed rest."

There was a chortle. 

"So, who's this Kagome girl that keeps sending you to the forest with such an aroused scent?"

He froze.  He realised it was the female wolf hanyou from yesterday and noticed he was naked now. 

"GET OFF! KEEP YOUR TONGUE TO YOURSELF!!" he snarled.

Inuyasha struggled to get up, but noticed that there were red youki globes around his hands and feet, made by the wolf hanyou to hold him down. He gasped when he felt her tongue lick up and down the length of his throbbing cock enthusiastically. Thankfully the sensations stopped. 

 “I'm Akemi, by the way." She looked at him, expectantly, waiting for him to give her his name. Inuyasha was already at the end of his wits. 

"Look AKEMI. Do I look like I care enough to give you my name?! I am NOT interested! I am betrothed! I have a beautiful woman waiting at home for me and I am sure you can find another male to rut with in this forest and how many times do I have to repeat this!? GET OFF!" he yelled. 

Unaffected by his anger, Akemi smiled down at this heaving mass of an inu hanyou, ignoring the gritting of his teeth. Betrothed? What a pity. He really was a fine specimen of an inu hanyou. But betrothed didn't mean mated. Nothing should stop her from getting what she wanted. She sighed, love-struck with him, and proceeded to grasp his pulsing member. Inuyasha struggled more. Lazily, she started to stroke his cock up and down. Inuyasha let out a whine of torment. 

"You know, I am so glad I found you. Do you know how hard it is for a me to find another hanyou strong enough to mate this season? Most of them probably got killed off this season from the war."

She sighed exasperatedly at her own words. With her other hand, she scraped her sharp claws across his chest, beads of blood dripping out from the long shallow cuts. 

"It's a good thing you blacked out, you know? It made everything so much easier this time. All I needed to do was to make sure you didn't get away. Pretty easy to do when I can manipulate my youki globes. I've never met another hanyou like you that was almost as strong as me. Usually the ones that I meet are already transforming in fright and I have to beat them up to make them stay with me." 

As she chattered on about herself while she licked and nipped Inuyasha's body for a while before settling herself against the tip of his hard cock. Conversation from her ceased completely then. Her violet eyes were half-lidded from the pleasure as she rubbed her wet folds back and forth against his heated length. Inuyasha growled. Half in warning, half in arousal.

Suddenly, Akemi impaled herself on him.  

Inuyasha's eyes closed. Akemi was riding him; it was pure liquid fire. The heat was that good. Kami...kill him now....or Kagome would later anyway if she found out. He was pretty sure Kagome would be furious with him even if it wasn't his fault. 

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It was late morning when Kagome woke up to the smell of breakfast. Shippou and Kirara greeted her with squeals of delight when she conjured up some lollies and catnip in thanks for making breakfast. She stretched and yawned loudly. After getting dressed, she hurried to the river to splash some water on her face. Her right side was a bit sore from the deep gash last night. The blood had stopped flowing, thankfully. She wouldn't need any stitches this time for it this time.  

It was a good thing that Sango decided that Kirara should stay with Shippou to keep him out trouble. Kami knows, with Miroku's perverted tendencies, their trip was something that needed to done alone without anyone to hear the noise.... Yeesh. 

Noise....Hm...There was something she couldn't quite put her finger on. Today felt a little bit different...peaceful.  

Kirara rolled and purred in her catnip while Shippou hid his lollies carefully in his sleeves for later.  They sat down to breakfast.

"Okasan, where's Inuyasha?" Shippou asked.

Kagome frowned a little. That was it. Where was Inuyasha? She wondered. No wonder it was so different today. Usually mornings were spent breaking up bickering between Inuyasha and Shippou. 

"I'm sure he's just hauling in a couple of bears or something, Shippou" Kagome patted his red hair gently.

They continued to eat in quiet contentment.  

The peaceful moment was broken when Kirara's ears' pricked at the sound of Rin's laughter.

"Kagome-sama!" Rin shouted in the air, on Ah-Un, the dragon steed. Jaken screeched in the background in disapproval at the way she was wiggling dangerously while she waved at Kagome happily.

Sesshoumaru, descended with them, elegantly stepping onto the grass. He was a picture of perfection as always, with his silken long silver hair and cold citrine eyes. He inclined his head at Kagome.

"Miko" He greeted in his baritone voice. 

Kagome got up, dusting her yukata and smiled at him. 

"Oni-san, what brings you over to see us?"

Sesshoumaru shot her a dirty look. Shippou choked on his fish. He couldn't believe Okasan had just referred to Sesshoumaru-sama as her brother-in-law. 

"You will desist from referring to this Sesshoumaru in such a familiar way." 

"Why?" Kagome asked, still smiling, completely unaware and slightly confused.

“I’m practically your sister-in-law since I’m marrying Inuyasha.”

Shippou hastily swallowed the water and looked at Sesshoumaru's face. Only the slight narrowing of the eyes showed he was really, really irritated. Shippou edged closer to Kirara for comfort. Sesshoumaru ignored her and continued in his deadpanned voice. 

"Miko, it is necessary for your pack to accompany me to the Palace in order to review the court formalities. This will ensure that you will not disgrace yourselves in front of the nobility at ceremony held in your honour. Where is the rest of your pack?"

"Miroku and Sango are travelling east to visit his head houshi, they should be returning soon since it has already been two months since they left.  Inuyasha...hm... he should be somewhere in the forest. I'm sure you can find him yourself if you need to talk." answered Kagome.  

Sesshoumaru sniffed the air and caught the scent of Inuyasha and a female wolf hanyou's. He wanted to wrinkle his nose at the smell of his activities. He supposed that half-breeds should stick to their own kind. His visage, however, remained unaffected and indifferent.

"I will retrieve the useless half-blood." he announced, seemingly bored.

He turned to Rin. 

"Rin, stay with Jaken and Ah-Un here. Wait for my return."  

Rin nodded and gave him huge grin. She ran off to chase Shippou and Kirara, followed by Ah-Un snorting and snuffling, wanting to join in their games.

He turned, faced the forest and strode off towards the direction of the scent. Kagome hurriedly followed Sesshoumaru into the forest, hoping that nothing had happened to Inuyasha.