Lost Soul by mangageek

Sesshomaru Taisho & Kagome Higurashi

Hello, all! I’ve gone ahead and rewrote a lot of little bits and cleared up any grammar issues using a grammar check program. Thank you for reading and your interest in my stories! I have not completely abandoned them all.

*About changes & clarity since I caused some confusion with the events, this is a reminder that this is an all HUMAN AU, the only reason the shrine stuff is kept the same is because shrine temples are still very much run today, and by people who take these duties. So they are very much able to succumb to death and illness. The original fic explained how Sesshomaru’s wife was killed, while not bloody it involved gun violence. And with too many real gun violence situations, the part explaining the situation was taken out and I left only the result of the aftermath.

Now, that’s all from me!

I do not own anything. Please enjoy!

Lost Soul

It is said that if two people are truly destined to be together, despite any and all odds, they will surely find each other again and again in each new life in some way. Whether it be platonically like family or friends, or romantically as lovers, a bond that is truly connected would never truly be separated.

Sesshomaru Taisho was and is a very successful man. At the top of the business world, running an empire he had inherited from his father who had died from a heart attack while he was in his early twenties. He had kept the coming going and brought it further than ever.

Later marrying Kagura Sasaki and together with her having a precious little girl named Rin.

He felt like he had everything he could ever want and everything that he needed in his small little family.

Or...at least he had.

Sesshomaru Taisho lost his wife Kagura Taisho in a stick-up gone wrong. In the end, he was shot in the arm as his wife was shot through the heart.

The day he lost his wife, was the day he closed his heart to all other people. The only one he melted even just a fraction for was his daughter Rin. But with her looks mirroring her mother's, he unconsciously distanced himself from her and became an overall more stoic and cold man.

While he was never bright and sunny, his wife had brought out his softer and gentler side in his dealings, with her gone all was lost for his empathy.

~.~

Kagome Higurashi was and is a priestess at her family temple. A temple that had been taken care of by her family for several generations. Her family members made up of shrine maidens, priest, and priestess.

The current family members left were her elder sister Kikyo, and younger brother Souta, along with their grandfather. Having lost both parents in a car accident, they had grown up on the shrine and lived with their grandfather.

Kikyo had mainly decided to take care of all things regarding the house, finding no interest in the shrine or the duties that came along with it. Kagome, on the other hand, had a love for it. While in her teens, she almost resented being a shrine maiden, forced to since her sister was busy taking care of the house and her brother too young. She eventually found a joy in it and a joy in the history of the family and traditions. Of course, her duties were fitted to modern duties instead of the formal traditions of old.

The lived a pretty normal life of school and work, they were happy with their lot in life. Things began changing when Kikyo met and fell in love with a man named InuYasha, he was brash and rude and had a filthy mouth.

But he was overall liked, he was loyal and he didn't mind helping with heavy lifting so he was alright with them. Souta worshiped the ground he walked on, seeing him as a cool big brother type, Kikyo was head over heels and Kagome didn't know where she stood on the matter.

Her sister was happy, though, and that was what mattered the most. Sometimes she felt he wasn't all that he seemed and that made her feel on edge, especially when the topic of family was brought up, or even trying to bring up his previous background.

InuYasha was a guy that was handsome and he knew it, his ego was outrageous and had a hyper fixation on what was and wasn't masculine to do. He was stubborn, but so was Kagome.....

This, of course, brought a lot of tension between them as they fought a lot and bumped heads on what was the best example for Souta who was a growing boy and had begun emulating InuYasha in certain ways.

Kikyo either chose to ignore the bad example he set or saw nothing wrong with it because she was blind with love and he could do no real damage.

With InuYasha around, she became less worried about the family and more about building a life of her own. And Kagome was glad that her sister was finding her own place but was worried that she was becoming too dependent on InuYasha and was using him as an escape to get away from the shrine and all the duties that had been put on her shoulders since a young age.

Kagome understood to a degree, that her sister had taken on the role as a substitute mother to their younger brother, and to an extent to herself. She wanted her sister to be free but was afraid if she set flight, would she ever look back?

One day her worse dreams were realized as she came home after school one night to find her brother alone asleep in the house with Kikyo missing without a trace. She called every number she could, looking everywhere for her, and when her grandfather had come home from an evening out with friends she tearfully told him Kikyo was gone.

Kikyo was well over the age of eighteen, and from the note she left, had left on her own violation, so there wasn't much the could do in a report to the police.

Her grandfather had reassured her and her brother immensely that this was probably something she needed to do, that she needed time away but to never doubt the love she had for them.

It was hard moving on without her in their life, Kagome had just turned sixteen and Souta were going on nine, leaving both house and shrine duties to her.

Her grandfather helped all he could as well as her brother, they weren't going to give in on despair that easily. They depended on each other more than ever and felt closer to one another in a sense.

As months passed, while they stayed vigilant on any news from Kikyo, they tried moving on as best they could when months turned into years. The were more than immensely relieved when they got a simple postcard from her with the words "I'm fine, I love you". It was so simple, so small, but gave them so much strength and hope that she would one day come back to them, they were able to stand the burden.

Since they were running low on funds, Kagome sought a part-time job she could do outside of school and they left the shrine closed most days except for holidays. Her brother at ten was determined to show that he didn't need to depend on her for everything and began learning how to cook. Kagome was barely passing her classes, her long hours running the nighttime shift was hell on her body but she kept from dropping out completely knowing her grandfather would hate for her to give up her schooling just for the family. She grew an interest for a medical career and nursing, but with her current situation wondered if it'd ever be possible and saved her new dream in the back of her head.

A few more years passed when just as suddenly as she had left, she had come back into their lives.

They were greatly relieved and gave praise to haver their sister and granddaughter back. She was a little worse for wear and very much pregnant with an InuYasha in tow.

Her reason for coming back not fully based on love but more due to their lack of funds.

In the coming weeks, they had found just how much their sweet older sister had changed. And it was not for the better.

She had taken up much of InuYasha's crude mouth and was extremely demanding. They had chalked it up to being on the road with not much money can lead to some bad experiences where you have no choice but be tough and demand what you wanted.

Despite Kagome's love for her sister, a seed of resentment grew in her heart. While her sister went wherever, she was struggling to finish school and provide for their family.

Her dislike for InuYasha grew tenfold, while they welcomed the duo back with open arms, they were nowhere close enough in the budget to accommodate more mouths to feed. What made her hate him so much was the fact, the could hardly think of asking or depending on Kikyo to work while pregnant, InuYasha as an able-bodied male could work.

Whatever cash flow he had been receiving from whatever source was no longer supplying but he in no way thought of contributing his own weight around the house and supplying for funds, for whatever he took.

At some point without her knowing, her grandfather had come out of retirement and began working on the side so they were able to just barely pay their rent on time.

She hated having to depend on her grandfather for their needs, but with Kikyo nearing the end of her pregnancy and Kagome in her last school year, she had a strong hope that things would change and their situation would get better.

Despite not doing anything and being a general bum, InuYasha had a high and mighty air about him and thought he could put her down.

Kagome for one was not going to sit and take it laying down and made sure to lay into him every time he got the idea of even thinking of smack talking her. Kikyo didn't think it was Kagome's place to criticize her husband, which furthered only to distance the sisters and make the situation worse between Kagome and InuYasha, it especially did not help that she would usually side against her own sister even if he was putting her down.

At eighteen, a newly graduated Kagome was finally able to greet the newest member of the Higurashi family.

Shippo. A bright-eyed little boy who was a bundle of joy and love, who also cried at all hours and filled the house with plenty of stinky diapers.

The birth of Shippo brought a lot of calmness within the family, mostly in a sense that everyone was so stressed busy taking care of things they could hardly find the strength to argue with one another.

Kikyo was taking the birth of her son harder than any of them thought, she suffered through post-partum depression and feelings of being trapped at home by her child.

There were so many unresolved issues and feelings that had been pushed down between the sisters, they couldn't open up like before. InuYasha was the only one able to truly talk to her, and the only one she wanted by her side on most days. Kagome wanted her to see someone to talk about it, but the fear of her sister leaving again if she pushed a matter kept her from bringing up the issue.

She had seemed to slowly be getting over any turmoil she had been feeling as Shippo began to grow and was walking around. But, again, her family didn't see how deep the issues ran, as she began leaving the house more and more, leaving a lot of the baby duties on her family.

Kagome wanted to be understanding, but she just couldn't understand. She hadn't been through what Kikyo had, and though they were sisters, that was almost all they had.

Kagome had taken on a lot of baggage of her own, giving up her dreams of nursing and taking on a full-time job at a local restaurant. The few friends she had made, making all the difference in helping as much as they could. Souta now in his last year attending middle school took on babysitting the majority of the time. Their grandfather now much too old to work.

Kagome's paychecks were just barely covering their expenses with no extra cash to spare, her relationship with her sister was now almost completely nonexistent at this point. She didn't even bat an eye at her disappearing and reappearing, but what she didn't know was that the last time she watched her sister walk out the door would be her last.

The accident was completely the fault of the two, intoxicated behind the wheel, this didn't lessen the blow of the loss of two more souls, or the empty feeling inside her heart. Twice now they had lost family to automobile related accidents.

After the funeral and once fully alone, Kagome completely let go of all bottled up emotion, letting it flow out. The sorrow of not healing all ties before her sister left, the situation they were now in, the cruel and unyielding reality that no matter how much you suffer or lose the world keeps turning.

Not long after, their grandfather passed of old age. The Higurashi family had been brought down to three in just a few months of each other.

Brother and sister were in mourning for their sister and grandfather and having a baby that depended on them was just the tip of the chokeberry ice cream of rock bottom. She had just turned twenty-one and fought tooth and nail to keep her brother and her nephew legally.

As long as she worked with the system and kept her job, the two were allowed under her care, it helped that Souta was now entering high school and could vouch for her case.

She had no clue what life would throw at her next, but she had already fought tooth and nail to get where she had gotten and wouldn't let anything get in her way. Her bonds with the people she worked with and the social circle of friends became her new family and brightness that kept her strength going and her hope high.

Her focus was glued to her family and making sure her brother would graduate high school and go to whichever college he choose as long as she was able to provide for him. She would make sure that Shippo would continue to be the sweetest and the happiest baby she could make him.

It couldn't be denied that they'd possibly and definitely face all kinds of new issues, but they would face them together and stare fate right in the eye.

She had closed herself to love, telling herself that something of that nature wasn't for her, and her fate was to do nothing more than just survive.

But, fate, is a fickle mistress and winds of change are always blowing.

 *Hey guys, so this chapter was so heavy on kagome exposition because later will be revealed about Sesshomaru and his family later as the two meet and mesh. Thank you for reading and please look for more! A lot of my other fics are old and filled with grammatical errors, so keep caution haha! also dokuga may have changed a bit of format, but it should overall be clear enough to read!