Abyss by Brittany

Abyss

Abyss

I started to love you the way that I loved him, but you and I both knew that it would never work. Looking at you I saw convince because you loved me so much I knew I could make you do anything I wanted; I did. You trusted me so much and I broke it, you gave me your heart and I took it, only to break it into pieces and not care that I had. How can you love someone like me? I used you. I never loved you; it was a lie.

I’m not sorry.

My dear little idiot you came back to me and tried to get me to leave him for you. What you don’t understand is that he is who I have always wanted and loved; he is the one who has my heart and he will be the one to keep it forever.

I tricked you. Yet you still want me, waiting in the depths of your darkness. I’m not coming back, I was never yours you foolish boy. You were a toy that I played with and now I have back the man who loves me.

When I saw you cry it didn’t bother me, when you begged me to stay with you I laughed inside, when you said “You belong with me”; I thought to myself “No I don’t, the arms I want are here with me, while you stand there crying trying to convince me”. I really do not have any feelings for you, so sad.

You placed me on this pedestal and made me your “angel”, “little sparrow” or whatever you want to call me, and you worshipped me like I was a goddess. I find it funny how I never saw you that way, but you placed me there with such ease and I played you like the fool you are.

I understand that you love me and want me, but I never loved you, I never wanted you and now you must deal with fact that your “angel”, “little sparrow” was the bitch she told you she was.  Your raven beauty is an angel with black wings, he my devilish prince taints me and I love it.

I told you little boy it will always be Kagome the angel of darkness and he my love Sesshomaru the devil himself.

Now go and do what you do best, crawl back into yourself that hole that you call a soul and leave me be.