What I Have Become by fluffy's mate

Prologue: Introducing Beginnings

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha or any of its characters unless I made them up to fit my story and frankly making up characters is a bit too much. Bottom line I don't own it.

Author's Note: I started this story yeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaars ago and finally felt inspired enough to edit the prologue and continue with the story. Just a heads up I can not promise speedy updates. Either way I hope you all enjoy. 

What I've Become

Prologue: Introducing Beginnings

            The Last time she looked upon the trees and hills of her home, the only home she had known for thirteen years of her life, was over fourteen years ago. The shrine where she spent her early formative years chasing butterflies and battling invisible monsters with her brother would be nothing but a distant impression upon her memory.  She would also forget the magic well, where she spent many sunny afternoons reading and hiding from her chores like any sensible child her age.  She would forget the loving admonishments from her grandfather as he warned her time and again that the well house was not a place to play.

The memories of her friends would also disappear, to become nothing more than a figment of her imagination. She would forget she ever had friends or that she had known a carefree existence. She would forget what it was like to have people who cared for her and loved her. In the years to follow the only thing to keep her company would be the cold reality of death. Fear, loathing and the constant reminder of death would become close and cherished bedmates.

            Fourteen years. It had been fourteen years and yet at that particular moment she was remembering the last time she had felt the carefreeness of a child.  It was the day HE came for her. 

         The morning had started like any other summer morning. It was hot and promised to be a miserably sticky day. It was the kind of day where one spent as much time as possible doing nothing while lying about a pool.

At the onset of summer Kagome and her friends had made a pact, every day they would meet at her best friend’s house and take advantage of his hospitality seeing as he was the only one with a pool.

Besides getting the chance to cool off, Kagome had been looking forward to showing off her new bikini. She had finally managed to convince her mother that she was old enough for one and she wanted to make sure that a certain silver haired gold eyed Inu saw her in it.

She had nurtured a crush on her best friend’s older brother for the past few years and spent the majority of her summer trying to get him to notice her. Unfortunately he seemed to not even realize she existed. Kagome squared her shoulders as she walked into the kitchen. This summer she was going to change that. He was going to notice her wether he wanted to or not.

 As she sat down to breakfast she slipped into her favorite daydream. Silver hair and gold eyes had invaded her thoughts. In her daydream it didn’t matter that he was taiyoukai and she a young miko in training. His blatant disdain for humans didn’t exist in her dream either. In fact he would hold her gently and look deeply into her eyes as he slowly lowered his head… the shrill ring of the phone scared her out of her daydream making her jump in her seat.

Kagome’s mother laughed as she passed her on the way to the phone.  As she watched her mother answer the phone she had to suppress the urge to yell for her not to answer. A feeling of apprehension filled her as her mother brought the phone slowly to her ear.

As a miko she had learned to trust her instincts and her instincts screamed trouble. Abruptly the smile left her mother’s face, and Kagome’s instincts began to scream even louder and this time to run. She was in the process of getting up to make her escape when her mother turned to her, “Kagome go to your room.”

“Mom I was about to leave to meet…” Kagome began but her mother cut her off, “I said go to your room now!”

Kagome jumped up and ran to her room all the while listening to her mother’s voice rise in a heated argument with whoever was on the line. In her room she felt the tension in the air rise and frankly it was unsettling. She wanted to get away from the oppressive aura but she was afraid to leave.

Her mother had never spoken to her so sharply and for her to do so could only mean something was wrong. Pressing her ear to her bedroom door she could still hear her mother’s voice. She strained to try to make out the words but her mother slammed down the phone with a broken sob.

Kagome jumped back from the door her heart pounding. Her mother was making her way to her bedroom. The hollow sound of the footsteps on the floor boards heightened the already high level of nervous tension radiating through her body. Each step sounding more thunderous to her ears.

The door to her bedroom opened slowly to admit her mother whose aura slammed into her with the force of a sledgehammer, causing her to sit down abruptly on her bed. “Kagome I need you to pack a bag. You can only take one bag. Clothes and other basic essentials will be provided for you so don’t bother packing any…” on a sob her mother broke off. Choking back her tears she continued to address Kagome, “…just pack.”  As her mother spoke she kept her head down and didn’t look at her.

“I don’t understand…” she began but once more her mother interrupted her, “Kagome just do as I say!”  Hearing the tears in her mother’s voice Kagome stood to go to her, but she only turned and walked out the room leaving her daughter in stunned silence.

Kagome couldn’t even begin to understand what was going. She had so many questions. Who was it that called? What did they want? Why was she packing and only so few things? She wanted to chase her mother down and get answers, but from the way her mother was acting she knew she was more likely to be yelled at than get any answers.

Looking around her room Kagome considered her possessions. She could pack only a few items. An odd command but one she felt would be prudent to follow. She tossed her favorite books in her large yellow bag with the silver antique hand mirror her best friend gave her for her fourteenth birthday.  Picking up her weathered teddy she debated if she should bring him but looking into the inanimate glassy eyes, a premonition came over her and she stuffed it in the bag. She knew she was out of time and that she would never see her room or her home again.

She frowned looking about her room trying to figure out what happened to her day. The shock of realizing she was going somewhere and would not see her home again filled her.

She shook her head trying hard to dislodge the memories flooding it. She should be focusing on the job ahead of her and formulating a plan not remembering the last time she was innocent.  She held her hands up in front her face and tried to get back on track. She hadn’t thought of all she left behind in years but try as she might the memory just kept coming…

Kagome walked slowly out of her room touching objects in her path as she made her way to the living room. She felt her mother waiting there and sensed an aura she had not felt in years.

“Papa!” she ran into the living and flung herself into the arms of the man standing by the door.

“Kitten! Look at you!” Kagome looked up into the blue eyes of the man who had sired her and grinned hugely. It had been so long since she had seen or heard from him, she hugged him tighter.

Her feelings of apprehension eased somewhat. Looking at her father she chastised herself silently for feeling any apprehension at all. This was her father the man that gave her life, she had no reason to be afraid she told herself.

 “Good you’re packed. Good Girl” her father smiled at her again and rubbed her hair as he took her back pack from her.

            Kagome continued to smile while looking around her for Sota and her mother, both nowhere to be found. At some point while she greeted her father her mother had slipped quietly away. “Let’s go Kitten.” Kagome’s smile began to fade as she realized her father intended to leave without her brother.

“Wait… Where’s Sota isn’t he coming?” Her father didn’t bothered to reply just grabbed her arm and began dragging her out the house. “I have to say bye to Mom and Grandpa and Sota! Dad please wait!”

Moving faster than she thought possible, her father swung her around to face him and brought her face to his. “You will cease your whining and come along now. I promise you if you do not you will not like the consequences.” His eyes flashed from blue to red and back again. “Further more if you speak that boys name every again you will wish you’d never been born.”

This was not her father, her panicked brain thought as he released her and she fell to the ground. She had not even realized her had been holding up off the ground until her body met the stones of the shrine’s courtyard. She scrambled on the ground away from him. Trying to make sense of everything that was happening. His eyes. She kept thinking of his eyes. How did they change? Why did they change? This made no sense to her. She’d only seen that change happen to one other person, and they were youkai.

“Get Up.” She continued to sit there frozen in fear of the man that she called father. She didn’t want to go with him. She knew that nothing would be the same. She would never be the same.

“Please Dad. I’m scared.” She had watched as his lips curled into a smirk and flashed a fang at her, “You should be.”

Also sorry for any misspelling I will catch and fix them as I go. They are mostly due to moving too fast than the inability to spell properly.