Dying by Raceen_Ecstasy

I Can Do Anything

New story. Kagome's trying to quit drugs, it's not as easy as they make it on TV but lucky for her Sesshomaru is there to help! No, I'm not a drug addict.

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Only once the drugs are done do I feel like dying but this was to be expected, this was my routine and I'd keep with it for as long as I can. Only once the supplies of drugs have been devoured, injected, smoked, swallowed, sniffed (didn't matter what way they went, all that matter was the feeling that came moments after.) I floated on clouds for hours, riding on stars, I was Juliet and he my Romeo, and I was once a dog, running through a forest for hours on end.

For everyone but him the experience was painfully wonderful and we all acted out and showed how fucked up we were but not him. Sesshomaru sat back, smoked a few blunts in the space of time it took me to sniff one bag of coke, swallow one ecstasy pill, and smoke one pack of cigarettes, to be honest he's had practice. He only shared blunts with me, made sense because we were fucking and he knew I could hold off the sex for weeks on end. He wouldn't cheat on me, seeing how violent I got on opium, a drug that calmed me down but taken in large amounts I got black outs and memory loss to the point a where I get violent.

I grab Sesshomaru's arm and he helps me to his car while I wave a limp goodbye to the gang still in the forest, I hug Sesshomaru close to me. He slips me into the passenger seat and I slowly buckle up, picking up a pack of Virginia Lights I take a lighter from the ash tray and light the cigarette, inhaling slowly I let the smoke escape my lips in a sigh.

I've been so depressed lately and no matter how many times I get high I always get back to this low, it never gets better; feeling depressed I smoke, I pop pills, I drink anything to get high, the high wears off and I crash from using so much drugs. Sesshomaru worries about me and I worry about myself too, it's kind of sad the turn my life has taken. Almost a year ago I was a B+ student trying to get that A. Then I had met Sango, who had introduced me to Miroku, who knew Inuyasha, who was brother to Sesshomaru, who was my destroyer. He feels guilty I can tell.

But it isn't like I didn't have a choice in the matter; we started out slow, hits from the bong, beer, cigarettes. Then we started to move onto bigger stuff, cocaine, heroine I've tried every drug and if there's a drug I haven't tried it's because it's just an Imitation of an old drug and in that case; stick with the devil you know.

"I miss you," Sesshomaru states as he drove down the dead streets, never stopping at red lights; it was like he was wishing to get into an accident and my heart race at the thought.

"I feel sick," and my hands begin to shake and I could feel the head ache on the way.

"You know you shouldn't smoke Virginia's they always make you sick," he says as he takes the cigarette from my hand and throws it out the window.

"It was the only kind Hojo would sell me!" we pull into his home and he exits the car and made his way to the passage side, I unbuckle myself and prepare to be lifted out.

"I hate what I've become," I say as I lean my head against his shoulder.

"Then quit."

"How can you quit what you are?" I asks dully.

"You aren't a druggie, Kagome."

"I can sniff and inch of coke in thirty six seconds."

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"That's not anything to be proud of...fifteen seconds," he smirks as he lays me down on his bed. We lay on the bed without changing out of our clothes and I start to get sleepy.

"Maybe I should quit?" he didn't give me a verbal answer but his silence to me was a yes.

"What if I can't?"

"I'll help you."

"Promise?"

"I never lie," he was too honorable to resort to lying.

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An: New story, It just came to me while listening to a song called I feel like Dying by Lil. Wayne. I was contemplating making a story like this for a while now anyway, so let's see how it goes. Longer chapter I promise!

Rate and review please? It makes me smile.