Shoulda by allysworld

Shoulda

I realised that i left out a few paragraphs when i posted this! I was all Oh no! I have to repost it! lol

I do not own Inuyasha or the song Shoulda by Hinder

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Before I hung up the phone all I could hear

Was the dial tone ring in my ear

Sesshomaru starred at the phone. What had just happened? Had she just hung up on him? What was going on? She had never done that to him before.

If I could go back in time

I'd say those three words

Sesshomaru knew though. He knew why she hung up. They've been going out for 4 years, he had yet to say he loved her. She had said it though, with all her heart. She had just said it. But Sesshomaru still did not say it. He wished that he had.

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

And this can't be saved if you can't be found

She was the best thing that had ever happened to him. With her kind nature, and her affectionate ways. She was never judgemental of anyone. But, he hasn't spoken to her in a couple months. He regreted his inability to say three simple words. He was ready now. He knew he was, but, he could not find her. He could not find the woman he was ready to tell his secret to.

You hung up and left me for dead on the ground

You didn't even say goodbye

Yet. Should he blamed? She was the one who didn't say good-bye, she must've known how much that would hurt him. How it tore him apart. How if felt like someone had just stabbed him in the heart. She didn't even say good-bye.

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

No. There was no one else to blame. It was his fault. She had given him everything. Her love, her body, her mind, her soul. He remembered getting it all, and only fully giving his body and mind in return. He should have told her. The words aren't very difficult to say. Three simple words. Three simple syllables.

Now that you're gone I'm wasting away

The life has been siphoned right out of my veins

He can see her. In his mind she is there as she always was. Her smile welcoming him in. Her smile letting him know how much he ment to her. How much she loved him. But no, she wasn't really there.

'I feel so tired and lonely with out her. She was the one. The one who I foolishly let get away.'

If I could go back in time

I'd say those three words

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

And all he can do is think of that time, where he foolishly made a mistake. He held back his emotions his words, his imability to say the words back to her were the cause. The cause of all this stress and loneliness

And this can't be saved if you can't be found

You hung up and left me for dead on the ground

But as always he thinks. She ran away, she wasn't patient enough, and now here he was, a disaster on the verge of a breakdown. She had been everything and now she was gone...

You didn't even say goodbye

She didn't even say good-bye.

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

' If I knew that it would've been the end. I would have tried so hard to say them. I should've said it, but no I didn't. Did I think it made me weak? I believe so, now I feel more weak then ever before in my life.'

When you said those three words

I kinda freaked out

He couldn't believe that she had muttered them. Those words are strong and she used them on him. So was it his fault that he was in shock about it? Maybe, he should've been prepared but still...

When you said them first my jaw hit the ground

' I always thought that I would declare my love for her before she did, well the next time the words were brought up. She has said them to me before. Her delicate voice, nervous and shy in wonder of what he would say. I of course nodded my head. Of course she loved me.'

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

And this can't be saved if you can't be found

You hung up and left me for dead on the ground

You didn't even say goodbye

He was heart broken. Even his friends knew with out saying it that he loved her. Sesshomaru was never one to express his emotions outloud. They knew, and now he can't find her to try to correct his mistake. He felt like shit. He grabbed a mikey of whiskey and took a swig. The burning sensation seemed to help him be distracted from the heart broken pain in his chest. She didn't even say good-bye.

And this can't be saved

And this can't be saved

If you can't be found

If you can't be found

' I know that it is my fault. But I am willing to fix it. I want to try to save our relationship. Or restore what can be.'

His eyes shifted. Where had she gone? He looked around his living room. She called right after he had asked her to move in. He still had some of her clothing here. Maybe she plans on coming back? No, not even her family has heard from her. Or they have and she has asked them not to tell him where she was.

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

I shoulda woulda coulda said it back to you

'I could've said it back. If she gave me more time to think, my reaction stalled me. I was never good with words. She knew this damn it!' He slammed his hand against the wall his head lowered. Bring up the hand with the whiskey and took a long drink from it and shuddered as it went through his body.

"I should've said it to you. I realize this. Why can't you just come back?" he whispered hoarsly. His voice was quivering with emotion.

" Sesh.." He heard a voice, turning his head his breath caught. There soaking wet she stood, with a suitcase in each hand.

"Kagome?" He was afraid. Was his mind making up a illusion? Was she really there? He watched her nod, and saw some tears run quickly down the smooth skin on her cheek.

Standing away from the wall he walked over to her slowly, afraid that he would scare her away if he walked fast. Reaching her seemed like an eternity, he pulled her into a tight embrace and heard the suitcases drop agaisnt the floor as she wrapped her arms around him.

" I love you." He whispered against her ears. He felt her take a deep breath and cry.

' I had said it, it took to long to say the words.'

She hugged him tighter and he knew, he knew for sure. She was back, and was not leaving again.

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As I said before, I realized that a part of the story was not placed on the site! lol! so I have reposted it...

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