Dying For You by InutaiyoukaiNichne

Dying For You

DYING FOR YOU

Song for this story is Open Arms

I have been here the whole time never telling you what you have done to my heart. We stand side by side in this our final battle I know that I will not be going back with you; my time is coming to an end. I stand here at ease in your presence as I protect you knowing that I will take all of the pain for you for the rest of my days. I never knew what it was that my father was trying to tell me when I was so much younger but I do right now in this moment I have something precious to me and I don't want to loose it. I will fight to my last breath to guard you protect you from the pain that you will feel. I can only do so much but know that my heart will eternally be with you.

I watch you there fighting at my side knowing that you are intentionally putting yourself in danger to protect me but I don't know why you would. Your once white clothes of silk now blood red as the innumerable injuries to you continue to bleed your precious lifeblood. Your eyes once golden like the sun now blood red as you continue to fight at my side, the others are here too but I am only paying attention to you and what is going on around us. We have the hardest task to finish this they are to watch our backs but there are just so many enemies that we have to wait to reach our goal until we fight our way there. All ready your immense power fading there are just so many to fight off, how can I help you. Do I dare touch you to try to heal you? I know that you need it but I don't think that you would accept it from me. We finally get rid of the last barrier to our goal and side-by-side we enter the lair of the hanyou we are here to destroy once and for all.

You stand at my side seeing all of my blood you cringe a little knowing that I am in pain but I am at peace here at your side whole for the first time in a long time, happy that I can do something to help you even if I must do so with my death. Nothing will harm you that I can promise you but I can't even talk to you now. I know that my time is short and all that I want to do is share what I have left of it at your side making sure that you are safe until my brother can get to you. I never thought before that I could love someone but I do and it is you, my dear sweet miko. You are the only one that has ever cared about how I felt even though I tried to keep you out of my heart you made your way there unknowingly but none the less you found your way much on your own. I love you for the peace that you have given to me, the laughter that I could never let slip from my lips. I love you for the smile that lit up my dark times, for the warmth that you gave to me. I can feel your love as you try to hide it from me I know that if I died it would break your precious heart but the only thing that matters to me is that you are safe and alive. You are all that I care about anymore and that is just the way of things now. You never knew and you will never know my love that I was always yours for the taking; I just couldn't show you that.

Your eyes hold warmth now that I have never seen in them as you look at me trying to tell me something that your lips just can't say. I think I know what it is that you want to tell me but I cant read your mind or your heart. So, long ago I came to love you and the cold silence that I knew held some much more than what you allowed me to see. I knew that you needed me if not as a friend just as someone in your life. I know that I wanted so much more in our time together but we don't have that chance right now he is coming and I know that you might not make it. I reach out to you; you lean into my hand on your face and close your eyes as if treasuring that small touch taking strength from it. You open your eyes and nod in the direction that our enemy is approaching from and together we begin walking to face him one last time untied at last. I take a deep breath knowing that I just might loose you today even though we haven't had a real chance to see what it was that we both might have wanted in the end from this. We enter the room that he has hidden in and you begin to attack him, I stand there tall at your side trying to protect you but I have a task as well. I pool my power in my hands and pull the jewel from him knowing that once it is gone you can finish him off for good. You swing your sword allowing all of your power to flow into that one last strike knowing that he is finished. He gets in one last attack on you and you stand there swaying slightly as he disappears into dust. Once he lands in a pile on the floor I walk up to it and purify the area. I then turn to you, now on the floor in a pool of your blood trying to stay strong for me I know that you don't have much time but I cant heal you here I have to get you outside knowing that you don't want to be in here. I place my shoulder under your arm and almost have to drag you out of this rotten palace, I will not leave you my silver love at your side is where I will be until the day that I die.

He is finished I know that you are safe for now, I fall to the ground the last wound was fatal I don't think that even my sword could save me now. There are tears in your eyes as you carry me out of this retched place. You know that I don't want to die in here take me to where I can see the moon and I will die at peace in your arms knowing that I have given you all that I could. We fall as you carry me out of those once blocked doors and into the pure night air and silver moonlight. You continue to hold me trying to heal me but I know that it wont work this time I am too far gone all that I wanted right here holding me close as the moments of my life grow shorter. Father I understand what it is to love, I know that I don't want to leave her but she had to live I couldn't take the pain of her death I know now what it was that you were trying to tell me so very long ago. I look into your blue eyes knowing that they are the last thing that I want to see, nothing else in this world has brought this much peace to me. For once in my immortal life I am happy and thanks to you I can let go of the hate and the pain, here in your arms heaven for me. The darkness begins to close in on me I know that if I am ever to tell you how I feel it must be now before it swallows me whole.

"Kagome know that I will always love you." I whisper as the final light of my life fades into the darkness. I die knowing that you have at least heard the words from my own mouth at ease with the fact that you are strong enough to move on from this you will survive you have to.

It isn't working I can't heal you! What is wrong I have before? I can't let you leave me not like this not now that I know that I cant live without you! Don't you give up on me fight for me! Love me damn it! Don't you die on me! Don't you dare leave me here alone! I cant do this on my own I cant go home my heart still here with you! I will not leave you my love I will always stay at your side if you die I will follow shortly after you I can't take this loneliness. The ache in my heart killing me just thinking of the fact that your strong powerful heart is slowing as you lay here in my arms. I tighten my hold on you I don't want to let you go I cant you mean too much to me. Your eyes once again the golden warm suns that I know and love but even the blood red that they were just moments ago loving and gentle as they looked at me. Don't try to speak just rest I will hold you. You will be just fine you have to be I can't live without you.

"Kagome know that I will always love you."

Those simple words for so long unsaid now rip out what little remained of my heart as your heartbeat stops there in my arms. I cant do this why did you give up on me why did you leave me here alone I want to be with you. I take your sword from your hip knowing that I might not know how to fully use it but I do know that it might bring you back to me. I try again and again to bring you back to me, the others surround me now telling me that it was your choice to die for me but I can't live without you I wont I don't care what they say. They try to pull me from you and I wont let them you are my life my heart you will be with me even if I am in the afterworld with you I cant leave you. The mighty Tenseiga isn't working for me I know that you will not come back to me that way, I look at the others with the full Shikon No Tama in my hands knowing what it is that I would wish for they look at me I know what they are going to say. Your brother takes it from me and tells me that it isn't right to throw away what you have done for me that I should just move on with my life and learn to deal with your death. I refuse to. I will not stay here alone like this for far too long your brother has hurt me I know that you are the only one that I will ever love there will never be another.

Though your sword will not heal you and bring you back to me but its blade will take me to you I know that it isn't made to cut but hell I don't care as I erect a barrier around our bodies knowing that the others will try to stop me they want me to stay here with them and watch them in all of their happiness but I cant to do that, it would always remind me of what you and I never had the chance to have. I take the Tenseiga the worthless thing that you had always thought it to be now I think the same thing, it wont bring you back to me I have to use it though so that I can join you and there are no other weapons around us. I take the blue wrapped hilt into my hands. Our friends scream at me to stop what I am doing that they love me but it isn't their love that I want it is only yours and now you are gone from this world. The Tenseiga begins to pulse in my hands as I place it on my stomach knowing that I cant get it to my heart I am just not strong enough to put it there knowing that my heart belongs to you. I don't care that it wants something I wanted something from it just a moment ago and it denied me. I push a little the tip of the sword though dull breaking the skin but still not deep enough to kill me not yet. Suddenly a bright silver light fills the clearing I don't know or care who or what it is all that I know or care about is returning to you so that we aren't alone anymore.

"Lady Kagome would you throw away my sons sacrifice so easily?" asked your father as I stood there with the Tenseiga poised to finish its work.

"I didn't want him to die. I didn't ask for his life. I just want his heart and was robbed of the chance to love him."

"You weren't robbed of the chance, the Tenseiga wishes to grant your wish but it had to know of your feelings for my son. You can now use it to bring him back."

"Why should I trust in that? This sword refused me earlier why would it decide now to give me my request?"

"It feels your pain at his loss something that your friends cant do something that I understand all too well. If you don't believe me use it. It will listen to you. You are the new master of the Tenseiga my son will have a new sword when he returns it was your love that allowed my son to die honorably knowing that he was protecting that which he loved. You must believe in the sword for it to do, as you desire. Trust in it, trust in me, know that I wouldn't lie to you just as my son never did."

"Inunotaisho if this doesn't work know that I will purify your ass to hell before I die." I growled low in my chest making sure that he did know that it was a threat that I would carry out.

"Very well then."

I pulled the sword from my stomach knowing that I should at least try to do this. Inunotaisho had never lied to any of us before I seriously doubt that he would now. Knowing that he loved his son was all that I needed to take his word. I closed my eyes and watched the ashen creatures from the underworld surround my loves dead body in front of me. I didn't want them to touch him. In his bloodied state, he was so much purer than they were. The Tenseiga called to me to swing its blade through them, I followed its call to me and watched as they all vaporized into the night around us. I then dropped to the ground the blood from the wound to my stomach blending in with that of my silver love on the ground. I didn't care that I was bleeding on him; I needed to feel him I needed to know that he was going to make it. He had to if he didn't I would kill the most powerful inuyoukai that had ever lived because I didn't want to live on this world alone anymore I had felt too much pain in my time here and I didn't want to feel anymore. I laid down on top of him and placed my head on his chest next to his heart I had to know did the Tenseiga do as I had asked of it? Slowly and softly his heart began to beat again. Tears of joy filled my eyes as I heard that magical sound. I grabbed the Tenseiga and placed it back into its sheath on his hip he needed it much more than I did no matter what his father said the sword belonged to him not me. He opened his golden eyes and looked at me, I melted right there nothing else in my life had ever been so precious to me as his eyes were in that moment of time.

"Kagome why?" his voice a whisper

"I cant live with out you, you have to be here with me my love."

"What did you just say to me Kagome?"

"I love you. I have for a while but you stayed hidden from me."

"I had to I didn't want you to know that I cared that much for you, you would have told me not to fight at your side or that I would have told you not to fight at mine so I hid how I felt from you that was the only thing that I could do. I do love you though Kagome, I tried to tell you."

"I know you did."

"Do you trust in that?"

"Yes I have to. My love your father is here with us."

"I know he is he found me on the other side and told me what I could do for us if you wanted to that is.'

"What is that?"

"I could change you or become ningen myself."

"Sesshomaru, my silver love you couldn't ever be a ningen." I cried

"For you I would."

"I don't want you to be."

"Then you will become youkai?"

"If it gives me a life with you that is all that I want."

"Very well. I love you Kagome."

"I love you too."

"You two are the most stubborn people that I have ever met." Spoke his father in a loving tone.

"I know that father thank you for returning my life to me."

"I didn't do it your mate did."

"What? How?"

"The Tenseiga that even now does not want to be where it is. I told her that it wanted her as its new master and that you would receive another fang but she instead placed it on your hip. It wants her allow it to go to her your new fang will appear in its place my son."

"You are sure father?'

"Yes my son her heart opened yours and the Tenseiga felt her pain at your loss, the fang is covered in her blood in its sheath. Release my fang my son and I will give you a new one."

"What did you do Kagome? How did your blood end up on the Tenseiga, it cannot cut how did you do it? Why did you do it my love?"

"To live without you is to live a living death much as Kikyo did for so long I cant do that I won't do that I would rather die than to live a half life without you. Forgive me, I wanted to join you."

"Kagome you should have lived I died so that you would live."

" I didn't want to live without you." Her tears falling again he held her close as he pulled the Tenseiga from its sheath, he slid it into the obi of the blood soaked outfit that she wore. It was the same outfit that he had given her right before the battle. It once was as white as his own but now it was blood red as was his.

"Kagome I will always be with you no matter what happens to me you know that."

"No I don't I want you to be here to hold me and to love me you cant do that if your dead!"

"Let me hold you now, let me love you now. Let me take care of you for this once. Take the fang of my father and drop your barrier so that we may go out and meet him he has come a long way meet us. Give me this and for eternity I will be at your side I promise."

"All right but only for you for no other could have pulled me out of here I would have stayed here until I died, for at your side is where I belong."

"I know that and at my side is where you will be forever now my love."

"Thank you Sesshomaru." With that I dropped the barrier that had protected our bodies from the others I knew that he would protect me from them and that his father wouldn't attack me. His father wanted us to be together or he wouldn't have told me to use the Tenseiga. We walked slowly to him standing side-by-side leaning on the other, the wound in my stomach much worse than I had thought it to be. I knew that if I didn't start to heal myself that I would more than likely need the Tenseiga myself. I didn't say anything to the two inuyoukai that stood in front of me they didn't need to know. Inunotaisho looked deep into my eyes I think he knew that I was wounded far worse than I had let on to them but he didn't say a word about it.

"My son here to you on this day I make a gift of my own fang the one that you never knew that I had. Kibanaitokaki, the Fang of Nights Fire. A fang that I had made when I fell in love with your mother, she wanted you to have it when you found your mate. Take it in good health my son and heal her she is at deaths door there on your arm."

"Thank you father will you help me change her so that she will heal faster?"

"Yes my son I will."

The two inuyoukai stood there and started the ritual to bring her into the youkai world. Once the change was finished Kagome stood at Sesshomarus side proudly and looked at her friends. It was time to deal with the Shikon No Tama, but what wish could they make that would be pure?

"Kagome there is a pure wish I was told it when I was dying for you."

"What is that?"

"To be happy."

"Then all together we will wish for happiness."

As one we all wished for happiness, Kagome and Sesshomaru were clean and healthy, Sango and Miroku were demonic so that they would never have to leave their friend again, Shippo grew taller, Inuyasha became the full youkai that he had always wanted to be, and there was a surge of light around Inunotaisho as his form became more material as the glowing light began to fade.

"Father what did you wish for?"

"Happiness, for my sons."

"Father but you are here really here alive again."

"The kami gave me a second chance at life and I will live it with you two at my side and all of the little ones that you will end up having. Now lets return to the Western Palace and rest. I think that we could all use one."

"I agree father, you lead the others my mate and I will be following behind you."

"Very well my son."

We watched them walk away from us as we stood there silently. I looked at Sesshomaru. I wanted to know something but would he tell me. I had to ask.

"What else did you hear or see while you were dying?"

"That it was the way that things were supposed to be. That you would only see the fact that I loved you as I lay there dying for you."