In Your Absence by ladyhikikomori

Decisions & Doubts - Chapter 1

Disclaimer: Inuyasha and all intellectual property pertaining to Inuyasha are property of Rumiko Takahashi.

Sesshomaru sat on the outskirt of the village by the stream watching Rin as she played with Shippo and the other village kids, from the corner of his eye he saw Inuyasha approach Kagome who had been on her way to the stream with a basket of laundry to wash.

“Kagome, do you think we could...talk?”

Kagome turned around to face him and nodded her head never once releasing her basket.

“I meant alone.” He said, flicking his eyes towards Sesshomaru.

Kagome let out a sigh and said, “Look Inuyasha, your brother isn’t even paying attention to us and I’m not going to abandon my chores just to go traipsing all the way to the Goshinboku tree just so we can talk. Whatever you have to say, just say it.”

Inuyasha ears flattened to his head when he heard the exasperated tone she had but swallowed down his nerves knowing that he had started something he was obliged to finish. “I-I just wanted to let you know now that Naraku is dead and Kikyo is alive I’ve decided to...” Inuyasha trailed off afraid to finish the sentence he knew would decide his fate, before he could try to tell her she broke in, “Mate Kikyo, I know.”

Inuyasha’s mouth dropped open for he had not expected Kagome to respond in such an apathetic tone, he had expected her to cry and run off but not this.

“Oh come on Inuyasha, I would have to be pretty stupid to not notice where you go off to every night.” She said.

“Or what kind of activities you two participate in as well.” Sesshomaru, who had been listening in on the conversation helpfully provided.

 Kagome nodded and said, “That too, anyways, I really need to finish this basket so if you don’t mind.” And with that she turned around and resumed her stroll to the stream, dismissing Inuyasha entirely.

Inuyasha stood there rooted to the spot, mouth still agape before his anger took over. He turned to Sesshomaru and spit out, “Why don’t you mind your own fucking business?”

Sesshomaru stood up and let out a chuckle while he turned to fully face his half-brother. “Let me give you some advice half-breed, no matter how much seed you try and plant inside dead graveyard soil nothing will grow.” With these parting words he strode off to see a certain miko.

Inuyasha fumed, he had demolished numerous trees until they were just splinters in Inuyasha’s Forest. His discussion with Kagome had not gone as planned, he hated to admit it to himself but a small part of him had hope that Kagome would do what she always did – get upset about the situation but ultimately return to him to stick by his side. It wasn’t unheard of for a mated male to have a mistress. He felt dirty for thinking that Kagome would be willing to play second to another, or that he would even put her in such a position, but he also knew he wanted to have his cake and eat it too. His half-brother’s words had only served to piss him off even further and cause a spark of doubt to be born inside him. Was he making a mistake, could Kikyo not have children? If that was the case he would have forgone making her his mate and have chosen Kagome instead. No, he knew without a doubt there was no way Kikyo would agree to be the mistress. He would pick Kagome to be his mate and be faithful to her if he knew Kikyo was unable to conceive. Kikyo was alive, but he knew she had help from a dark miko and he knew that the dark miko had said not to expect her life to be what it had been previously. Inuyasha had decided, he would seek out the dark miko who had helped Kikyo and if it turned out she wasn’t able to conceive than he would tell Kagome that he had made a mistake out of guilt and obligation but that it was she that he truly loved.

Sesshomaru approached Kagome from behind as she was bent over; he stopped a moment to admire the view but was broke out of his appraisal by her voice, “Did you come to check up on me, Lord Sesshomaru?”

He scoffed at her question, “No, This Sesshomaru did not come to check upon a weakness that does not exist, you are stronger than that miko.”

This caused Kagome to stop what she was doing and turn towards him with a blush on her face. “Thank you Lord Sesshomaru, you flatter me with your words.” She turned back to give the sheet one last rinse before she returned it to the basket, she lifted it and went to walk back to the village but the taiyoukai removed it from her hands and fell in step with her leisurely pace.

“How do you think the taijiya and houshi will react?” His baritone voice broke the silence.

Kagome rolled her eyes and replied, “Probably how they always do, they’ll send me covert glances and think that despite my insistence that I’m perfectly fine that I’m actually dying on the inside.” She loved her friends and knew that they were just looking out for her; she just wished for once they would believe her when she told them that she wasn’t bothered by Inuyasha’s behaviour.

 Sesshomaru scoffed once again and said, “Foolish humans.” Kagome could only smile in response.